stop, cry, then focus
So.. it is totally over.
It’s time to move on.
i can’t say i am not sorry, of course i am, 6 years is a heck of a lot of time. It was a pain to think that we are not toghether anymore, but heck.. it happens.
So.. i stopped, cried.. then focused. I cried for all the years that went by, flew like air near my ears.. I stopped feeling like before, I began to feel like crap, i was sad, turnished.. everything seemed unreal, i was living a bad dream.
Then i focused..
He did this to himself. I am happy now and he is not. Now he’d like to get back to me, but i can’t.
Fact: he told me that 6 years were a waste of time.
Fact: he said he didn’t love me for more than one year, he was just staying with me for the sake of it.
Fact: telling me he might have feelings for another after all what we’ve been through and he needs time off to think about it.
Hmm… these are not ok to say to a person, no matter what. He should have kept those for himself.
He kind of took me and threw me in the garbage.
Now i’m really afraid to care again.. but i enjoy life as it is. I like it.
Now i’m still focusing.. Not knowing what the future brings is kind of scary, but fun..
